learning a little something about someone else’s struggle
This morning while getting ready for work I decided not to depress myself with the news and watched MTV. They had on their series ‘True Life:….I’ll never be thin’
Today’s episode was about 2 individuals that struggled with their weight. I caught bits and pieces of it and didn’t really see a lot about the girl. The guy had moved himself away from his family and all the temptations to get busy on his weight loss. He lost a total of 140lbs in one year. That’s a lot of weight for one year. He was basically starving himself, living off of only 200 calories some days. You could tell he was losing the wrong way because he had no muscle mass, his skin was loose from too fast of a weight loss. He didn’t look healthy. And when he got to his magic number, he binged and ate more calories in one sitting than he sometimes had all week.
Watching this mans struggle made me sad for him, and happy that I do not have that type of relationship with food. I do have struggles with my eating, fighting the urge to eat bad, fighting the urge to eat sweets and salts around that time of the month, not overeating at picnics or social gatherings because where there are people, there is always good food that is bad for the waistline!
But watching this mans struggle also gave me a better understanding as to what those of you who are bingers go through. The bliss you feel while binging, the heart sinking remorse you feel afterwards. To those of you that battle the binge and win out over it, you are amazing! And when you give in to the binge, dust yourself off and put on your big girl/boy panties and start anew.
Tomorrow I am doing just that after giving in and falling off the wagon last night. I craved Arbys, so after fighting it for weeks, I gave in. I had only one regular roast beef sandwich, the 3 stick cheese sticks, and had 2 ears of homegrown corn with no fat butter spray. I fell off, but it wasn’t too bad. Tomorrow I embark on another chapter of my weight loss journey - running! I’m a little frightened because as I’ve said before, I hate running and basically wouldn’t do it even if my bum was on fire and I needed to get to water! So I’m going to get up around 7am, drink a big glass of water, stretch and lace up my running shoes and get out there. 2 miles. I’ll rock my ipod with some get your heart rate up music, have my bottle of water for when I need it, and cell phone just in case. I will write tomorrow and let everyone know how it goes. And I will sleep very well Saturday night because I will have run for the first time since I was a wee girl!
I think it’s okay to have some days where we fall off the wagon, as long as it isn’t too bad, like you did at Arby’s. It keeps our bodies guessing. I too hate running and picked it up a little bit last year just because I hate it so bad, I need to be able to actually do it, you know? But, with my gallbladder surgery this last May and being out for 6 weeks because of it, I stopped running. Now am trying to get back to where I was. Good for you for starting a running program! And going 2 miles the first time! Keep it up! :o)
Great job on the running - I can’t wait to lose a little more weight and start running again (at the moment my weight causes problems with my knees). I know some people - including me - need to schedule a regular day off their eating plan in order to manage it and not give in to unplanned binges. I think everyone has their own way - and as long as its healthy its okay.
You are going to rock your running shoes!!